<TITLE>04. Par 28-31</TITLE>L-28 Now, everyone heard of where the next meeting will be. We begin at--at Chicago, the Philadelphian Church, and from there to some auditorium. I don't know just where yet. We're just going to begin. I may be there a day, and I may be there six months. See? Just to begin, and stay till God says, "This is enough," then I move somewhere else. And we begin on the 12th day of next month, the 12th day of January at the Philadelphian Church in Chicago. And then we're hoping soon to be in Phoenix and out in the west, and around, as the Lord will provide.

L-29 And I am desperately in need of prayer, of you peoples to pray for me. And I... not for health. I'm very thankfully and grateful for my good health, the Lord has given me. And I'm healthier and better, I guess, than I ever was and have been for the last few years. And I'm grateful to Almighty God, Who He alone gave it to me. You see? 'Cause everything, all others just failed and said I couldn't do it, I couldn't make it even to Mayo's. But I am, this morning, by the grace of God, as far as I know, in perfect health. So I'm so happy for that, and giving God all praise and all glory, 'cause no other creature, nothing else could've done it but Him. So I'm happy for it.
But spiritually, I--I'm needing spiritual guidance. It seems to me all the time, that I'm a failure. I--I just--I just something haunting at me, "Oh, you're such a poor excuse." Well, that--that's right. See? I--I know that. But what little I have, I want to do the best that I can with what I've got. And I'm longing for more guidance of the Holy Spirit, to know what to do that's right.

L-31 'Cause, after you get forty-five years old... 'Course, I realize I keep saying, "Getting old," but that's not old. I don't mean to make some of you people that's older than I, feel bad. That's... Why, here's Brother Bosworth in his eighties, and better man today than I am. And but it's... And look, old Dr. Hamm over there, a hundred years old, and he's a good preacher yet. So I got a long, long ways to go to get to that. And doubtful if whether he'd admit he's an old man or not. So it's just the...
It's the idea of it is that, of course now, I'd... If I'm ever going to be at any season, or any age to be the best for the Lord, it'd probably be right now. See? 'Cause, all the kid things are passed away, and you're settling down, turning gray, and you know, just it's the time of life where you really should be anchored and strong enough yet, and just at your very best; mellowed out, the kid part, and the boyhood beat out, just at the time to enter the field. And if I'm probably ever going to know anything that I have, I should know it now. And I'm so thankful for what He has showed me in His Gospels, and how I'm so glad of that.
But I--I... Yet, I just--I just can't satisfy myself, somehow. I--I just, something, I hunger for God. I... There's just something I ought to be doing, looks like, and I just can't get to doing it right, somehow. Just... It was here, years ago, I used to tell you, I could just reach after something and almost touch it. You see? It just seems to me like there's something else out there I'm just almost touching somewhere. If I could only get that spot, and just then--then would be fine.


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